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That's been one of the longest breaks away from the blog yet. Although I've never needed much of an inspiration when it comes to putting sloth into action, I feel I have a half-decent excuse this time. Laura's mum died on the 1st of the month and it has left me feeling somewhat cast adrift. Her father died young, too (at only six years older than I am now) and, despite my conscious belief to the contrary, Laura's double loss can't help but wave a great flag of mortality in the parade ground of my unconscious. More than that it underscores the inadequate support I am at tmes for my wife. Her strength just now astonishes me. Where I would simply curl up in bed and hope that others would step in and sort things out she fulfills every task that is thrown at her and acts as a support for others that have less reason to grieve, pester her for unnecessary details, and vie to prove how much Laura's mum meant to them. Through all this she continues to run a business single-handedly when she could and should expect better support from those close to her.

We've been married 14 years now and I am finally realising the remarkable strength of this woman I live with. Better late than never, eh?